The Sky Is Falling

那年. That year

2012-01-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

Recently I've found this drawing.

Drawn by a guy whom I've dated few years back and it brought back memories.

Puppy Love, you'd say.

But life is a constant battle, full of unexpected events and we were all kids back then.

I remembered the day we met in camp; and the day where we had to say goodbye.

I ran as fast as I could to the bus stop and as I saw him leave, I cried.

Thank god for technology, we managed to get each other's phone number. Haha.

We kept in touch, and for the first time in my life, a guy asked for my home address and he wrote me letters.

Admittedly, I was hard to deal with, but he tolerated with me and reminded me how one should always be ladylike through his letters. Haha. I was never allowed to curse infront of him, though he said it was acceptable if it was unavoidable. Which reminds me that I shouldn't be cursing too much now. ;)

We conversed in chinese as his english wasn't good, yet he told me he'd study English everyday to one day tell my father that he'd take care of me forever.

He'd buy me fruits every time we meet, as he claims junk food aren't healthy.

He'd prepare all kinds of stuffs like tissue, plaster and all of that when we meet, because he says that I'm the clumsiest person ever.

Haha.

I'm happy he has met his special someone now, and thankful that he gave me one of the best memories I had as a teenager. :)

Quaint and simple. Will I ever have such love again?

因为错过，所以回忆更美丽。
把一切停格，保留储存在脑海里。

成为一段又酸，又甜的美好回忆。

再回想起时，庆幸年少时有一段精彩。”
— 那些年，我們一起追的女孩

10th January

2012-01-10T23:54:00.004+08:00

Another year has gone by... Guess I've been saying that too many times in my blog.

I'm thinking of what shall I do tomorrow, should I cook, or should I just take away for sis?

Do I go to gym or do I not?

And do I apply for the university of my choice now?

Or shall I wait...?

Sigh.

I guess I am feeling better now.

Relationships..come and go.

We were once happy.

That what matters.

Let it all be memories.

It's not like I have not tasted the saltiness of the sea.

It's not like I have not tasted the bitterness of medicine.

It's a new year, 2012

2012-01-05T21:52:00.002+08:00

It's the fifth day of the year 2012.

If the year 2022 still exists, I would have been 29 already.

Hopefully I would already have a stable job, found a good partner, my parents still well and healthy and also my grandparents would still be around.

Ten years from now, my sis would probably be working like me. Would probably have already gotten married.

I actually feel like writing a letter to myself and have the post office deliver it to me 10 years later.

It would mean so much.

It would mean alot to know what I have accomplished in these ten years.

But, back to the present.

I've realized I have indeed spent a lot, or, will be spending a huge sum in continuing my undergraduate studies abroad in the US.

Is it worth it? Is spending so much, worth it?

I can't think of any other things besides this already.

2011-12-11T07:09:00.002+08:00

so i woke up like at 6 on the sunday, went back to sleep and woke up at 6:45 and now i'm up.

not entirely, but i told myself i gotta get this Budgeting chapter done cause i need to finish up 5 units today ( what i told myself ) and i have tuition at 6pm on a sunday like wtf. sigh :(

Please i hope i get a B, i'm perfectly happy with a B but not a C or fail.

2011-12-08T14:07:00.002+08:00

Didn't blog for quite awhile.

Am at the library now.

SUPPOSEDLY studying.

Haha. So stressed out with work and stuffs that it's been so long since i blogged.

Used to blog every single day but now I'm like.

AH,

let's just tweet.

The days have been going past fast.

After everything that has happened, i'm finally again moving back on track.

Feel that life is good

Besides my results.

Just got 8.2% / 10% for econs test 2 and i'm like $%#!@%

Two years ago if i got 8.2% i'll jump with tears of joy, but now i'm like mhmm. this is shit.

Yeap

Your momma love tomatoes.

So many stuffs to think about

2011-11-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

It's dissapointing when...for all the times in the world, a good friend bailed out on our only night out after so many weeks of not seeing each other.
And today was one of those days where I seriously felt like I needed to go out.

I've checked the MSU application deadline and all and it's just stressful.
With all the projects/assignments to handup, with my theatre presentation.
With my TOEFL unread.

I just need a hug from a big teddy bear.

Sigh.

02.11.11

2011-11-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

Closing another chapter of my life?

November please be good to me.
I have not been updating my blog, I know.

I did love him. I have loved him. But I guess he's just not the right one.
It hurts. No matter how slow or how fast I shall move on.
It still hurts.

I have given my all. I felt I was putting effort but It seemed to him like it wasn't enough.

I need to learn how not to let someone into my life so quickly anymore.

03.10.11

2011-10-04T21:44:00.003+08:00

In theatre class we had a fun session talking gibberish !
Before that Ms.Pat handed out papers regarding theatre (wikipedia style) and then later we did warm up exercises..projecting our voice through our diaphragm/solar plexus..controlling our breathing and reciting a,e,i,o,u loudly while walking around the room/jogging.
We had to recite each vowel and hold it as long as possible until we're out of breath and start over.
I find it a great way to train ourselves in projecting our voice and controlling them.

Later, we were asked to find a partner(weng you) and speak gibberish.
Each pair then acted out a sketch, while talking gibberish.
It was hilarious. Sue Quen and Denis doing some lesbian scene, followed by some brokeback mountain titanic by Calvin and Patrick. Then there were scenes about robberies, mother and daughter, siblings. and of course, mine where me and weng you acted as chefs.
It was really funny.

Then we continued with our voice projection training. by talking to another person far away from the room/ from the opp. side of the room.
I find that i had to throw my voice out to be heard.

28.09.11

2011-09-28T09:29:00.002+08:00

*theatre class*

warm-up exercise ( in a circle, make inaudible sounds,and the rest follows) - teamwork, cooperation, in sync.must be split second difference. followed by actions in the second round.

6steps action, to create a 6steps action [wash clothes] to an observer {A&B}, and later observe the other person's 6 step actions. ->switch partners and imitate the person's action you observed beforehand and act it out to the new partner. the cycle continues for four times- and then the last observers stand infront and one by one act it out, and the original action created by the first person will stand up and act the original 6steps action and we can see the difference. - cooperation,teamwork,observation,concentration.

in a circle,count 1 to 20 in random. unable to count 1 to 20 successfully as we were not given orders on who to continue, so tendency to say it out loud together- calvin came out with a plan to use the eye contacts method in order to succeed and we eventually did. it took everyone to comprehend and cooperate as usual.

Assignment due on friday. And decided to change my script..

19.09.11

2011-09-19T09:19:00.002+08:00

*For my Theater Journal*

Ms.Pat taught us the Suzuki method today. As far as I've known it is one of the several music teaching methods found, and originated in Japan because I remembered stumbling upon the word when I was reading the Tiger Mother.
I think the Suzuki method taught us that we can actually learn from our surroundings/environment. Ms.Pat taught us how to ground ourselves,by bending our legs slightly so we can stabilize them, and to maximize our concentration in breathing.
The central point in the body now moves to the abdomen, and not the face.
At the beginning, we were asked to stomp our feet firmly on the ground and march around the room with some really good music that made me wanna move to the beat.
Then we were suppose to recite Life's Brief Candle while stomping and later while skipping.
Trying to compare which action projected our voice better.
After a few tries we all agreed that stomping did seemed to project our voice better.
Later, we were asked to form a line and walked slowly.
And...im now currently too lazy to type so I'll just to this for my own sake :

- ZEN
-CONCENTRATION
-POSE
-RECITE
-LOOK STRAIGHT
-TEAMWORK, IN LINE
-SLOW
-CONTROLLING TIME
-BREATHING
-STEPS
-FEET
-POSE TELLING A STORY?
-SERENITY

And I shall write it all out in pen soon !

Toodles.

2011-09-14T20:03:00.002+08:00

I got to know that my ex boyfriend was being a bitch when we broke up few months back.
Sigh.
Heard some stuffs from people.
Was furious for a second but quoted by my friends," the word bitch would be an understatement"

Anyways, i'm all good now.
And I definately have to say this again, you are the best thing i never had.
And I am truly surprise I still don't hate you. I actually feel relieved !
Oh for those times you told me "you're not the only one going through a hard time."
If those stuffs I heard from other peope were true, then what you told me is indeed laughable.

My Dream of Hell

2011-09-04T10:58:00.002+08:00

Taoists believe that there's another dimension in this world, where the deceased are said to live there like us, having daily routines, living another slightly different life. "The other world".
That's why people burn paper money, paper cars. The main point of it all is for the deceased, the second point is that it's just profitable business.
When the Shang emperor was killed by the Zhou, the Zhou had to explained to the people so he told them that 'Shang Di' went to another dimension but he's still there, taking care of us. ( If I remembered correctly from my world religion class).

ANYWAY.
#FML for having to dream that i died.

So this was how my dream went.
I died in a car accident, with my mom, my sis, my dad, my grandpa
basically my whole family died and i woke up in this odd place where there was so many people walking.
Like a train station.
Only thing was we were queing and we were suppose to register to go into that other world.
I just knew it was the other world because it felt like it, and i knew that i died.
I even thought to myself that my body in the coffin would prolly rot in three days.
WHAT THE FUCK, ok that was what i had in mind. and i actually remembered how i was thinking.
So suddenly this little girl about 8 years old comes up to me telling me her name was Virginia and whether i remembered her. And I didn't, but I asked her "how did you die?". She said, " Oh I was killed." "By who?" "I don't know.." Then another young girl came by, I asked her "And how did you die?" "Oh..I killed a few people and then I killed myself.".
I was like wtf, then I asked "So how does this thing work? Do we even buy things here?"
The girl said "well yeah you have a bank account here, you should check your balance later." The girl showed her balance and i saw "6910 something.." maybe i should by toto.
..pukimak i have a bank account here but oh well.

The thing about my dream is the whole place was just gloomy. dark. and we were basically in floating motion. it's a tiny bit colder than usual, about 16 degrees cold in an A/C room.
And then I asked a guy, who i knew so well that he died but I just couldn't register his face when I woke up. I know this guy. I know him. But i just can't remember who, "Do we have 3G down here? Cause I have to twit.." Well the guy didn't answer me but I saw my iphone had 3G so yes I guess they have 3G in hell..
Mom said we were suppose to go for a 'talk' since we're new here.
again, what the fuck is wrong with me.
Walked through this long weird lane where things came in different shapes and the walls were moving..
Stopped infront of this really small lift that the door was the size of a small window.
But as I went in it just fits my height perfectly.
I clearly remembered there were SO MANY buttons in the lift and we had to press level 7 room 1.
We appeared in this hall where the entire place was floating in nothingness.
The chairs were floating, the stage was floating and there were people sitting, moving around, talking.
Aand i sat there.

And then I woke up.

And i swear i'm not gonna sleep anytime soon.

Dear August please treat me well.

2011-08-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

July did not treat me well, and I hope August does not fail me.

Hiiiiiiii. it's been long since i've updated my blog here.
I miss updating my blog.
But then I got lazy these past few weeks because I've been coming home at about 1 in the morning for 7 days straight.
I don't even see my mom anymore. ( oh but, but i did see her in the mornings for a few hours. haha)

I have indeed moved on and have found this special someone who is taking good care of me right now and understands me.
And I'm happy to have met him.

i love you for just being there. just being there with me :)

The lazy song.

2011-08-05T10:38:00.003+08:00

you're the first person that tells me i'm beautiful. :)

2011-08-01T19:06:00.001+08:00

you make it real for me. - James Morisson.

2011-07-24T10:02:00.003+08:00

yesterday was fun. now back to reality.

world religion slides

statistics project fml

statistics project

but then again. i had a nice time last night with Daniel. :)

2011-07-23T11:05:00.001+08:00

my phobia similar to last semester is back.
haha and it's because of calculations again.
fuck this.
why do i always have to screw up test 2?
and why everytime i'm aiming for an A it always comes to a C?
so tensed up like last semester now.

2011-07-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

thomas yeo i think you miss me too much you buat kacau. heh :)

Hi Daniel. Just thought of saying HI. haha.

\

Haih clement chew. DAMN SPEECHLESS EVVERYTIME I HAVE DINNER WITH YOU.
YOU MAKE ME LOL TILL I CRY.

2011-07-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

ANNOYED.

2011-07-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

A friend's car broke down the other night,before the Bersih rally.
One of the worst nights i had. Was literally inhaling car exhaust for hours till the tow truck came.
note; tow truck.
i was so pissed that day i mispelled it troll-truck.
haha.

But then again. It was a memorable night.
For alot of different reasons.

safe

2011-07-10T21:03:00.002+08:00

wants to feel safe again. when?

Is this me?

2011-07-06T18:21:00.002+08:00

outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.

2011-07-04T21:10:00.001+08:00

19August. :) Can't wait.

2011-06-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

Few days ago I wrote a sad post following a particularly pensive night.
Recent events has once again lead me to a normal night lying on my bed with a very silent phone.
leaving me, once again, reflect on things.
People that come and go, in my life.

In 2004 I took up writing. And 8 years has gone by and i have kept all these diaries with me.
Okay maybe I should say JOURNALS because it sounds better.
I started my first post in this same blog in the year 2007.
And from then on, I rarely wrote on my journals. Besides sliding a few quotes, pasting a photo or two. Clipping a few memorable movie tickets with a post script on the side.
That was it.
That was my journal for the year 2009 till now.
After stopping for officially a year. My most recent journal entry was on the 15th of June,2011.

I have decided to write again.
To express all that I can.
Fully utilizing every tool i have in expressing every single thought out.
Twitter... somehow doesn't help for me.

And after thinking.
Most of the things I thought were a 'big deal' in our lives turned out probably not that of a big deal anyways.
Friends come and go..relationships come and go. But that doesn't make them any less valuable when they were with me.

2011-06-26T22:08:00.003+08:00

Went to gym this morning. Felt great that I was there burning some fat.
Thinking that I'll hit gym tomorrow again just for 45 minutes.
Have Malaysian studies quiz on tuesday.
Haven't complete my statistics homework due tomorrow yet :(
Luckily I have two hours of break after 9.
Don't like excel. - don't like.

Had dinner at Chilis.
This dude i think he was the manager said "Bye,BeiJing" when I walked out from there.
Took me a few seconds to realize he was saying bye to me. Because I was wearing my beijing tshirt.

Can't wait to sing some karaoke on Tuesday. :)
Had a nice time with HafizHood last night.
And of course, the very enjoyable night with Amy on her birthday which we went to Alexis Bangsar and to Malones,Curve.
She made me laugh till I almost teared.Crazy girl.

Most of them are going disco skating tomorrow night, which unfortunately I have to stay in to study MALAYSIANSTUDIESwtf.
Disco skating sounds so old school :D

All it's left is to fill in wednesdays and thursdays and then \ FRIDAY NIGHT is Onz!
:D

ciao.

22/06/11

2011-06-23T09:44:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Soh Yu Jun. Yesterday was our 13th year of knowing each other am i correct? Haha. We knew each other for more than a decade already. Now you're coming to ADP Taylors. So unexpectedly. Haha.

So yesterday I went to the dentist and removed my lower braces. It's not even obvious because my lips too thick to even let people notice the removal.
Then before that was hanging out with grace,bel,ash,koh, justin and wee.
Went out dinner with Justin...
but I am ok.

Maybe I will go to US next year, then who knows i'll come back early in 2014. If 2014 comes :)

Genting trip

2011-06-19T17:43:00.002+08:00

I packed my bag in about ten minutes, forgetting to even bring my glasses and set off to ou to sit on the bus to Genting.
I want to thank Pinky for somehow showing up when I am feeling down.
Thanks for the ride to ou too. :)
I want to thank all my friends who's here with me. Consistently driving me insane with their talkative mode.
Genting was fun no doubt. Darren was the BEST tour guide you can ever have if you want to find a haunted apartment to live in.
I'm quite scared whether something followed me home or not after this :/
That night we moved all the mattresses to the living room and everyone huddled together cause it was fucking scary no kidding.
Darren had to sleep near the sliding door cause nobody would want to sleep there. poor thing.
The wind was seriously icy cold and he didn't have a jacket to put on plus he gave me his share of the blanket and tried to block the wind from blowing in my direction he 'claims'.
All i know was I was technically half blind because no glasses, i was hearing noises. Darren was shivering and i can feel him shaking beside me, Marc was snoring, Lian somehow never uttered a word. Johann hands hit my head twice. Some dude said "I'm a girl" during his sleep.
The phone's alarm clock was constantly ringing.
Aidit somehow pulled out my phone charger which idk why he did that.
The wind was whooshing, there were sounds of people digging something below us, rattling sounds, knocking doors, singing at 6am.
No idea how i slept. Darren said it seemed like I slept well but IDK wei haha.
The night theme park was thrilling for sure. Corkscrew with that wind blowing and no jacket on me..

" what do you want to do when I come back? "
" well I was hoping for a day trip somewhere together."

Haha.too bad it didn't happen but this trip for me was worthwhile, hopefully next time I can find that special someone to go with. :)

To let go.

2011-06-17T17:30:00.003+08:00

If i could reverse time and let me go back to the post where i asked myself should i dive into this..
it would save all this pain I am feeling. It would save me from all the sadness I was bound to face.
But we cannot reverse time, and I cannot regret it.
I had a friend who told me to just let go a month ago because he sensed that i would be the one getting hurt.
Blake told me that it's time to let go.
Everyone told me to do the same and then i didn't want to let go.
Think of all the bad things he did, think about all the worst things he said.
And I could think none but only his smile.
It's easier said than done...
But now I have to, because I don't want to be the weak one.
If you grasped something too hard it will crumble and fall, so what for?
This will not affect that someone who has already given up...
So what is the point of grasping. gasping for air. tears. ?
I have put too much into this.
Today I am trying to keep myself busy.
six months passed.
What now?

2011-06-09T22:41:00.002+08:00

have VIP tickets to the magical musical thing in sunway lagoon.
going with mom.
going for their cocktail reception before the show starts.
ah, wished i could bring a friend.
damn bored wei.

2011-06-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

someone's coming back next wednesday :))
i've been waiting for about 4 months plus already.
finally can see his crazy face :)))

however when everyone's having their holidays i have my bloody mid year exam and presentations all that stuffs.
Quite bosan lah.

For the past few months

2011-06-04T15:54:00.002+08:00

Well this 'lala' picture was taken two months ago during my first semester in college. Anyway decided to upload this pic here rather than facebook haha.

i'm so tired after volunteering for TRAAMP sumo wrestling competition.
Can't imagine I actually sumo-ed.

完成了所谓的理想

2011-06-01T22:23:00.001+08:00

放纵了情绪的泛滥
汗都流亁天都微亮
然后怎样
拥有了旅行的空档
却遗失流浪的背囊
沿着轨道一直浏览
然后怎样
假期过完有什么打算
走过一个天堂少一个方向
谁在催我成长
让我失去迷途的胆量
我怕谁失望我为谁而忙
我最初只贪玩为何变负担
为何我的问题
总得等待别人的答案
我的快乐时代唱烂
才领悟代价多高昂
不能满足不敢停站
然后怎样
完成了所谓的理想
放纵了情绪的泛滥
汗都流亁天都微亮
然后怎样
拥有了旅行的空档
却遗失流浪的背囊
沿着轨道一直浏览
然后怎样
假期过完有什么打算
走过一个天堂少一个方向
谁在催我成长
让我失去迷途的胆量
我怕谁失望我为谁而忙
我最初只贪玩为何变负担
为何我的问题
总得等待别人的答案
我的快乐时代唱烂
才领悟代价多高昂
不能满足不敢停站
然后怎样

2011-05-22T22:51:00.001+08:00

had dinner with eugene lim today at chilis with mom & sis.
so full.

ok can't think of anything else to say.
i love you dear. :)

2011-05-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

i will earn my own money.

2011-05-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

ps : Thomas Yeo, sorry for not keeping in touch with you. It's also due to the fact that you stay so far i lazy want to find you la bro. Hahahaha.Take care OK.

Shoh happy

2011-05-11T21:56:00.001+08:00

SO PRETTY.

3:51 p.m.

2011-05-10T15:50:00.000+08:00

Thirsty.

tuesday

2011-05-10T13:00:00.002+08:00

currently putting on my mask i just bought the other day from Origins.
It smells like rubber. uggh.
Hope it does good to the skin.

Should start reading the business model generation book on my desk but. @!$#.
wait till my partner comes back from his trip. Then the work begans !
Haha.

Lookin' at all the notifications that's poppin up on my iphone screen.
So many people are in campus.
Tomorrow I'll probably go for the orientation leader meeting.
Then thursday and fridays I would be in college.
Welcoming the new batch of summer semester students ! :)

Need make up brushes..sunglasses..and a new watch..
That's about it actually..

Things I like

2011-05-09T14:55:00.001+08:00

Nowonder my blog is said to be 18 and above by blogger.

Hahahaha.

2011-05-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

should have been sleeping an hour ago..
just too stubborn so decided to stay longer on the net.
went to Klang with cheng loke to meet sue quen.
Going pyramid tomorrow.

i miss him. Can't wait to see my crazy boy next month. :D

2011-05-04T23:54:00.003+08:00

The name JUSTIN.

IS SO NORMAL.

IIT'S EVERYWHERE.

face it, baby. :)

hehe. good night. off to bed.

2011-05-04T21:42:00.002+08:00

Had a good time at Eugene's house today.
He calls his little sis "baby". so cute. haha

I failed playing Call of Duty and Army of Two..
Fail in using the controller to shoot things down. prefer those guns in the arcade.
The little girl laugh at me. :'( Hahaha.

But then i found my game : God of wars.
I think I'm good in slicing monsters and humans.
Haha.

Had dinner at Namaste with Eugene and Cheng Loke.
Quite an enjoyable day.

Ah. Did my chocolate cheese brownies and my roast chicken by the way.

Ok that's about it. Bye-bye.

On my wall

2011-05-03T23:32:00.004+08:00

So beautiful. I don't mind hanging this on my wall.

random things about me :

1) One of my favourite songs would be " I wish you love " by Rachael Yamagata.
2) My favourite muffin is the banana chocolate chip muffin from Starbucks.
3) I don't put sugar in my latte.
4) I place three layers of blankets on me before i sleep. ( though in the end none will cover me.)
5) I like to eat Glutinous Rice Balls with black sesame fillings.
6) I time myself everytime I drive to college to search for nearer parking lots.
7) Everytime I wash my car, it rains. -Fated-
8) I actually love painting. Just never came around doing it.
9) I feel my relationship has been going on for years. That's the feeeling i get. But I'm happy to say It's been four months plus already.

2011-04-20T20:16:00.003+08:00

Four more days to just study my ass off.
It rained heavily today and I was all soaked while walking towards my car.
For all the time must rain.

After monday afternoon I can go Sunway to shop :) If i have the money.
Can't wait.
But my fingers are trembling. My GPA seriously will effect alot of things.

Tomorrow should be an important day but unfortunately I am not beside him to celebrate.

2011-04-19T17:37:00.003+08:00

I dont know but am I doing things wrongly?
Am I planning life wrongly? Do I have to study everyday during my semesters? Can't I have abit of fun here and there?
Am I slacking too much untill today when I see my marks I feel my heart is breaking?
Not to say I didn't study..Not to say I didn't do my work.
Not to say I skipped class. I went to every single class even on the day my boyfriend left for studies.
I do pay attention . I do take down notes.
I do study before exam
But maybe not everyday.
But shouldn't the outcome be slightly better than this fucked up shit i'm receiving?

I just don't know..
This is more stressful than SPM..

Even my facebook shows how i stress everyday
And how much i want to curse tiu tiu tiu everyday cause I'm not doing my best.

2011-04-18T15:43:00.004+08:00

why do i feel like a total failure. i just want to be an average student. now i feel like im below average wtf. i feel so stupid by my results this week. soon to be results. esp calculus and accounts tomorrow. after receiving this blow of getting 6.3/7.5 out of my recent english assignment. i lost 1.2 marks. i already lost so much i only have 7 marks left in order to get a bloody A-. 7 marks out of 25.5 marks. that means i have to get like 19 marks to secure A- i want an 87% for english :'( suddenly feel like going clubbing to release stress.

Slow Reaction

2011-04-12T19:35:00.002+08:00

The moment i step foot out of ENG 101 this morning. My pair of wedges ( wooden ) stepped into this guy's black converse. And it was on the guy's foot for quite awhile due to my slow reaction. HAIH. I fell into the guy's embrace without knowing. as my eyes were still on my wedges which was still stepping his foot. "SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY" He pushed me back up and said "NVM" then looked at me with a "what the hell" face It was then I realised i was still holding his hand. I bet he thinks i want to take advantage of him.. hahaha. looks like it my friends say. Miang miang. FAIL. FAIL. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Screwed calculus.

hope

2011-04-08T22:58:00.003+08:00

I didn't know writing an essay about hope will leave me sobbing. Sadly it is due on Monday so I have to get it done by tomorrow. My heart aches as I wrote my introduction. Remembering back how it actually happened.. I am actually tearing now. It hurts like hell.

Sciatica

2011-04-07T20:02:00.002+08:00

Recently i read an article about this 19 year old girl who is paralysed from her waist under. It all started few years ago when she had leg cramps and and it slowly affected her kidneys and her spine which lead to damaged kidneys and now this. To my friends who have been reading my blog since the beginning . You guys realize i always and constantly complain that my leg hurts. I will always walk slow. I will sometimes take time to stand up from a seat. I sometimes stop halfway while walking. I sometimes have that one minute where i would suddenly fall silent. My nightmare comes and goes. It doesn't happen every minute of my existence but when it does happen it happens on a regular basis until it stops for about a week, or so? I am truly beginning to feel panic.Whether what i'm feeling is similar to the girl above. I did some final research and came up to a term call Sciatica. It described the exact pain i am feeling. And i think this is it, i finally found the description That immediate shock that sends your stomach twisting and your fingers tightening into a fist and every ounce of muscles tied up into a knot. That was the pain i felt an hour ago.

Funny feelin'

2011-04-06T21:43:00.002+08:00

..............................

Whatsup.

2011-04-04T22:10:00.002+08:00

what's up. ps : justin kong this is not your 'line' okay. Haha.ciao

Where to start

2011-04-03T08:48:00.003+08:00

Hi. i am trying to think where to start. haha. Just finished my 'gender' assignment last Friday. It was a collaborative writing. I felt that my team did well so hopefully we can get good marks for it. Have to watch an assigned movie soon, "Pay It Forward". And then I have to study calculus. Well if I'm hardworking enough will do accounts. Have to find the balance sheet for Microsoft co. D: I watched a stupid,awful,horrible show last night. Choy Le Fut (2011) not the original 1970's. Plot-less, a disgrace to the Choy Le Fut martial arts , and the dialogue stupid beyond believe. Enough said. I suddenly feel like eating fried won tons. It's the time where all the ups and downs take place. I have to try to be more understanding though i think i am. hahahaha. Both of us should. :) Love you.

My Passing Mark

2011-03-29T20:43:00.002+08:00

I didn't update for awhile. Plenty of assignments and events. Such as Lian's 'surprise' party or you can say Amy's bbq party. A small dinner gathering at the Curve with a few old friends. We practically see each other on a weekly basis nowadays haha. What else. More stress on assignment. Calculating my marks each time. Fingers crossing I would not fail. 70% is a fail so every 0.1 % counts. every week we're given 5%..15%..7% assignments.. and I will receive.. 5.3%...14%.. worst of all today i receive 14.875% over 20% and cannot round up. Stress sial. I don't like calculus now. :( DISLIKE DISLIKE. Kay kay. Going to continue with my english draft. Tilll thn.

Turtles.

2011-03-21T15:08:00.003+08:00

i still want to do this in the future.

snap photos of baby turtles..

mother earth is trying out a new washing machine.

I guess she accidentally pressed hard spin.

But here's the thing i don't get. You see Japan is suffering so much right now i don't think any biblical quotes telling them that they should accept this tragic incident actually helps.

If you want to show some concern or love to this issue just donate them some cash.

Of course they currently need faith to survive but just cause majority of them are Shintoists or Buddhists doesn't make them less human.This is not the right time to ask them to convert themselves into Christians. You have no rights to condemn Buddhists or Shintoist or whoever that is stuck in Japan dying.

I'm saying it to anyone that took this personally.

Friday Night !

2011-03-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

After sending in my english assignments, completing my accounts assignment and studying for my accounts quiz.
I am finally free for the weekends.
Will only stress on future assignments starting Monday.
Oh would like to say thanks to my classmate Joshua for dropping me back home from coll.
Bloody hell i realized my new car kena scratch although i drive like 3 times alone only.
And 100% guarantee my parking spaces were huge.
I think it's my mom. She's currently driving it while waiting for the other new car to arrive.
Yes, i think it's her...

After my dinner at curve, went and picked the twins and ashley up.
Went to Austin Chase in Giza. Kristin Rach and Grace soon joined in.
Bought their vanilla crepe something something. Expensively good.

I like it when dahling calls randomly..
Like out of the blue I see his name on my phone and it's as if he is still here.
:) That crazy guy.

ps : friday night should be reserved for " catching-up sessions ONLY".

I'm not an impromptu fan

2011-03-14T18:55:00.002+08:00

Getting 5.3 out of 7.5 not funny..
Quite upset for not scoring that 2.2 marks.
2.2 marks is so important.
Now my current assignment kanasai.
Haven't even start typing draft one.
Procrastinating because I have zero inspiration and energy to think about the topic assigned.
is this another fml post?

Oh btw. Thanks Clement for lending the ipod touch . You freed me from boredom.

Blessed

2011-03-11T19:06:00.005+08:00

I am blessed that all I could worry about will only be my assignment.

And I really feel pretty blessed that I am here , at home.
Well I don't really know why God got upset with the Japanese.

But my prayers is with Japan at this moment.
I hope not many died.
The world is already in a bad state.

We prolly should learn how to build ships like what Moses did.

American Degree Programme

2011-03-10T18:38:00.003+08:00

I cannot deny that it is really

All
Day
Pray

All
Day
Panic

All
Day
Pressure

All
Day
Phobia

and there's not much of an All Day Play...as I was told when I registered for this.

Have a presentation to rush for tomorrow's 10:20 class.
I am like dying here cause of my flu,sore throat and mild fever.
I miss my boy .

One thing though, I'm not regretting for taking ADP..
Not yet.

Today is Not my day.

2011-03-09T17:49:00.004+08:00

I woke up with a flu,sore throat and a huge headache.
I really don't want to say this again because life is usually good, but FML man.
I felt my day was shitty.
With the occasional nauseous feeling. Spinning and spinning..
I can't concentrate much and I hate it. I hate that I can't calculate my maths right.
I also hate it when this girl looks up and down at me with those bitchy eyes like what I wore was an insult.
Fuck you la though my bag did not cost as much as yours but it still costs alot
My god. what a day.
This university is just full of spoilt brats.
I don't want to swear alot but I just don't like what happened today.

And also I'm doubting my ability to trust the right people.

Wow.

2011-03-06T22:45:00.003+08:00

Wow.
Poster not done.

What more to say?
Lately I see alot of people wearing birkenstock sandals.
I think that's how you spell it.
They look very comfy :D imma look for it. Maybe it's in Pavillion.
Wow.

So long didn't step foot inside Pavi.

Hectic life in college.
Always leaves me feeling half-dead after that.

If tomorrow cannot print out the poster right...
And I've purposely wore yellow for the second time in my life right..( So can "ONG" abit)
I'm gonna have to take it out on someone..
be prepared my dahling.
yes,you.
The one staring at your mac with the :O face.
Thinking... 'wtf..'

Damn sien lah..
My holiday starts in May. Whyyyyy. I want to go holiday nawww.
Or maybe, I just want to hangout more with people.
My social life now is just during lunch break where i think "today want to eat in the foodcourt or eat good food?"
Yesterday I spent the whole day doing my assignment with B,S and R.
Then today I spent two hours only with JUN.
And circled the entire PJ to print that diu poster cause it was a Sunday so no shops open.

Oh btw... If you ever read this Ryan..
I just want to thank you so so much. You're like a really super nice person. :)

Saturday :O

2011-03-05T01:01:00.002+08:00

It's saturday and my poster is not complete.
Trying my best to think positively.
Anyway I'm typing in the dark. Just,cause.
Just came back from Herris with Lian.
Met up with Jo them all.
Drove there and back.Not bad considering I just passed on Monday and currently without a P sticker on my car and most importantly no license too. But I'm going to get it at about 9 plus tomorrow.
Met up with my friend Ek Wyn for you can say,lunch, in campus. Thanks for the subway. :)

Can't really think much now.
I just need to focus on my anti smoking poster.

oh and , i love you :)

北风好不留情

2011-03-02T18:11:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdpNT5yRbwg
This song brought back so many memories and so many current feelings..
This friend of mine kept singing it back in campus lately and it's heart wrenching yet funny that I could sing it with someone who knew the song well.

Today was just tiringg ! And tomorrow will be tiring too.
I'm starting to worry about the poster which will be due next Monday.

Just joined so many clubs. Which I now start to worry whether i have time for all of them..
I joined PAWS ,the animal welfare society club in Malaysia.
Also joined AIESEC and toastmasters.
Maybe..just maybe...I might join dodgeball soon. HAHA.

I need to go out this weekend. Hope Friday can really have lunch with a karkei them all.

Ohh, I've passed my driving test so Tengg when you come back to Malaysia we can go cari makan as promised ok? :)

2011-02-26T23:37:00.003+08:00

.

root of all heartache.

i think to myself.
I have so many friends.
But do I have friends that stick with me until the very end?
I want to find quality and not quantity anymore.
I want to find people trustworthy enough.
I want to find good friends.

so many expectations...

Driving lessons are tiring.

2011-02-26T18:19:00.002+08:00

So tiring. I seriously hope I can pass I cannot bear doing it all over again.
It's so time and energy consuming!

I have blisters on my toes thanks to that Hush Puppies wedges I was so excited about in the previous post..
70 bucks is not cheap and you have blisters on your toes. not one but 5.

i suddenly miss Ayesha's vietnamese beef noodle.

Accounts Homework

2011-02-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

Still copying and writing down my assignment.
I think I'm just going to wake up early and do the rest..

Bought a pair of Hush Puppies at Curve just now :D
maybe I'll wear them tomorrow. Heehee.
Think I'm joining some friends for breakfast tomorrow. And that is my only plan for tomorrow.
Oh and also handing my soft copy into Taylors webpage.
Sleeepy.

Toodles.

three hours away is super mafan.

2011-02-23T17:49:00.003+08:00

Shit lah. I think I damn overweight kao kao.
Or you can say I'm super unfit.
I can predict later I will be dying in the gym..
But I don't care lah I need to lose my weight.

Today I ate a breakfast set which was not that big, then i ate some roast chicken for only rm3.50 ( damn value for money ) and lastly i ate my Hoagies for dinner which i opted for balsamic vinegar.
That is my one day meal.
Quite satisfied..

sigh.
going gym alone is no fun already when you know no one will be waiting for you like last time.

Going the distance

2011-02-22T18:53:00.003+08:00

Today my darling left for Australia.
22nd February,2011.
First day without his madness..
His loudness..

I don't feel like describing everything here..
afterall this is still quite personal..
But I was very overwhelmed that he came all the way to campus just to see me for that 5 minutes.
That 5 minutes was worth every second.

I want to thank Lian and Shen Khai for making my day better.

UNEXAMINED LIFE IS A LIFE NOT WORTH LIVING

2011-02-19T22:17:00.003+08:00

what am I going to write about racism..
narrative style?

How to even start the first sentence so it could be interesting enough to catch the lecturer's attention.

ACHIEVE THE UNACHIEVABLE.

I used to put that in my essays but seriously it's just bullshit sometimes.
Okay.

I am going to ..meditate..
trying to develop a complete disregard for where my abilities end......

epic failure.

.......f.m.l

The days are numbered.

2011-02-19T01:03:00.003+08:00

Saturday. Sunday. Monday.

screw it man.
screw it.
I DAMN EMO.

why you have to do this to me. Wahlao 1am and i damn emo.
I can kill anything that moves in this room..
well hopefully nothing moves cause i'm technically alone..
Quite scared actually.

The toy pup is staring at me.
Yeah ,the owner is fucking sad now.

third day of college

2011-02-17T19:34:00.002+08:00

Just want to say thanks to my friend,Lian and my 'so lou' for fetching me to and back from college. I seriously appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.
Haha.

I'm starting to have my very small group of friends that i can click with.
They are nothing like my taman tun friends .. or my kuantan friends .. but can click lah. :)
Yesterday I just talked to this new friend about something deep until I wake up having different perspectives about things already.

Ala. Have to study. Feeling so sleepy now can die.

mother. the song 'who's that chick' keep replaying inside my head.
WHOSE FAULT IS THAT.

14th of February, just another Monday.

2011-02-14T22:30:00.003+08:00

Haha. We get that alot during the first few days in college.

SO. Today's Valentine's Day.
Happy Valentine's to all the very beautiful people. =)

But to me, Valentine's Day is just overratedd.Plainly just a day to earn more money. Earn more from people like my dahling. Kena CON. HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, had dinner and watched a movie then I came home because I was quite tired. I've been in college the whole day. Going to Giza now ain't a good idea.

my Sundance writer Handbook so pretty :) My lecturers are currently nice people.Let me emphasize the word ,currently. haha . Fingers crossed they are the best .

I love you dear. For all your craziness and madness which is always over the borderline.

2011-02-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

Just got back from Danny's.

Went to see dahling for a little while before he becomes a 'woo woo'.

But before all that I had a nice time with these two pandas above.

Very cheeky. I love them crazy. :))

Oh went for Korean food in Tropicana with some friends.

TOODLES.

2011-02-11T19:16:00.003+08:00

An iphone4 would be nice lately, I could snap some really interesting shots in college.
My new friend Tyrus told me to wait till iphone5 comes out and see how it goes.
But iphone4 would be the best choice for me currently to keep in touch with charsiew constantly.

Anyway. I'm quite happy with how things went during orientation.
But I'm nervous about classes next Monday.
New LIFE.

Can't wait to hangout with my new group of friends.
We started clicking by extending handshakes and cracking weird jokes.
Met this two guys call Meng and Beng.
I think their jokers. Should be pure fun to be with.
Haha xD

My dahling came over at 2 with wee.
Waited for me till I was done with orientation and we went Giza so the two gay buddies can play pool while I watch Man VS. Food with an empty stomach
We then went to the hotdog stand and Weewee and I bought hotdogs.

Here I just want to say thanks to Lian who is officially driving me to school this whole week.
I cannot just let her drive without giving her anything, it's a chinese thing.
Haha.
And thanks darlin', for fetchin me back home.

Orientation

2011-02-10T22:38:00.004+08:00

Today's the first day of Orientation for the American Degree Transfer Program.
It was fun.
Besides the fact that the councellor said that i was gay.
long story. let's not go any further. HAHA.

I made some friends.
Well the programme placed me in a group where I was the only girl .
But the guys are pretty nice. Quite friendly.

Had lunch with my dahling Lian and Eugene.
I made Patrick, my new friend to join us for lunch.
And as I was buying sweet from the local store I also made this dude Eugene was sitting next to join our group.
At least everyone's not alone right? :)

However, I have major tranportation problem starting from Day ONE.
You can say it's super fucked up.
Ok, let's lessen the cursin.
My dahling say I sound weird when I curse.
It's not like, not appropriate. But just..plain weird.
Have to agree though.

Hope my lecturers are awesome people. :))))
Fingers crossed I have a wonderful day tomorrow.
Meet new people :D

IT'S ALREADY TUESDAY.

2011-02-08T16:13:00.005+08:00

Time spent → in the shower;

25% -- Daydreaming.
20% -- Building up courage to turn off water and step into cold air.
20% -- Turing in a circle to maintain even hot water distribution.
5% -- Singing my lungs out.
10% -- Contemplating the hardest decisions of life.
12% -- Washing hair.
8% -- Washing other body parts.

Haha Was tidying up the drawer when i found out my old planner dated 2008.

I wrote about how i met this same person in different months and dates.

And we met eleven times in total.

I had put our meetings in bullet points. now all I could think of was 'how did all these stupidity got into me.'.Haha.

HAHA. Everyone's all grown up. So last week would be the 12th time I've met him. Wwhat a bloody small world .

Anyway back to the present.

I am just gonna say it is the first tuesday.

And then we have another tuesday.

And then...there will be no more Tuesdays .

So when there is no more Tuesdays, I'll ask myself.

Where do I go from here?

Where do I bloody go from here? when the warmth of those hands so far away.

yes no game

2011-02-07T23:23:00.003+08:00

SO CUTE !

Alright let me break it out to you.

I am currently craving, CRAVING , to buy something to colour my lips.

My Dior gloss is running out dry and I'm getting bored of it.

I've been looking around sites and noticed that M.AC.'s new wonderwoman collection of lipglasses were quite adorable.

Their athena and emancipitation colour got great reviews my bloggers.

But then I just read Nadia's blog which says that TopShop is good and affordable.

However located in KLCC.

A place which I've not visit since the last two years.

Why can't it be in Pavillion.

Right, talk about Pavillion.

Parkson forgot to remove my magnet tag from my brand new shirt.

Aand somehow the sensor did not beep when i bought it.

So mom has to find the credit card statement and resit...

Megasucks.

Moving On..

Chinese New Year was ok.

Get to see my grandparents and my darling cousins.

But besides that, nothing much.

Same old same old.

Recent friends I've met this whole week : zero.

Today's tengfatt's birthday. SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY my friend.

7th year of knowing you. haha

I wonder how cherng woei is coping up .

Haa.

I know the female mind is very confusing.

I sometimes get confused by my own self.

I'm a confused person but darlin when i say i no play the yes no game means i no play the yes no game.

When i say yes mean i say yes.

When i say no mean i say no.

No say 'YES' but heart say 'NO'.

Youuu getcha what I meaning?

Ok maybe I sometimes will play yes no game but now now no play.

You speaking my english?

You getcha whata I am sayin'?

HAHA.

Asians.

CNY 2011

2011-02-04T12:37:00.002+08:00

another chinese new year photo of me,mom and sis.

Any difference with the one last year?

haha. only older i guess.

Only the second day and I have nothing to do already.

Having this really bad sore throat.

And I miss the gym.

i also secretly miss my dahling.

*haha not so secret anymore*

cooler than me

2011-01-31T23:13:00.002+08:00

would just type out the song that is playing .

am just lazing here having a really bad sore throat.
You can say i didn't sleep the whole night.
People talking. talking and talking.

Sigh
I have not been feeling the awesomeness for a long time.

I LOST IT

2011-01-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

This is funny.
So boy, next time I also text you like that ah? :)

Walao not a nice feeling lor to be losing a new pair of pants before cny.
Thought of wearing that for the first day somemore.
Now I'm less of one.
Gila GILA .

k bye.

Fawesome Barbeque

2011-01-29T00:58:00.003+08:00

Just came back from this crazy boy's house.
He was a great host today. He made everyone FAT. :)
His marinated lamb was really good.His prawns were really good. Sausages were heavenly and then there was alot of things which just made this bbq feast fantastico.

and right now I super miss him.
There is something insanely cute about him.
*MAYBE IT'S HIS STUPIDITY*
xD
hahahahaha.
It's just because it's him . He is mad.
He does these crazy things.
He sings out loud all the time.
He talks too much and talks too loud.
He screams randomly and scares me to death.
He cooks well and is as stubborn as me.

technically he has a more stubborn nature.

haha.

He hates peas and carrots and dislikes it when i turn on my TVB drama.
He even hates Nandos. How can you hate Nandos... -.-

Haha
I suddenly feel hungry again.

27/02/10

2011-01-28T00:30:00.002+08:00

so today is the day my bread actually expires.
and just cause i didn't remember the date earlier this morning...
I have therefore eaten expired bread for BREAKFAST.
...

shit happens.
ha.ha.

alright that wasn't what i want to say today.
what i want to say today is that......
lemme think.
RIGHT.
all i want to say is that.

......i am so getting water retention on my face if i don't sleep early
ciaobella

doink.

2011-01-24T23:11:00.001+08:00

Brother from another mother.

discounts

2011-01-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

DON'T TAKE AWAY MY PRIZED POSSESION !

gee, random gile. :D

ah, should i take introduction to music or foundations in acting .

Heehee.

Both sounds DAMN FUN !

can't wait for college to start maaan

i need a sexless innkeeper.

2011-01-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

These characters always make my day :D

i super love marshall and lily.

LOVELOVE.

hanged out with some lovely people today.

they are like my ted,marshall,lily and robin.

BILLIONS AND BILLIONS

2011-01-22T00:14:00.002+08:00

Lying on the bed doing facial for 3 hours was a pain in the ass.
I can't move I can't stand. I am not good in staying at one spot for a very long time.
What people do for good skin. SIGH.
My skin hasn't been in excellent condition lately. Something is wrong somewhere..

Damn tired man.
Chatting with the crazy boy.
Super cina the way he typing now.

CIAO.

20 01 2011

2011-01-20T01:07:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Nadia's 18th birthday party
It was sort of a get together too .
All the high school mates.
I MISS EVERYONE
.
Aah,thanks Nad for the gift.
I hope you're happy with mine too. It was damn small . I should get you another one next time.

I don't knw how ppl get high dancing without any booze.
IT'S SO HARD.
HAHA.

ciaooooo .
i lav you.

Finish each day and be done with it.

2011-01-17T12:29:00.002+08:00

i need a new profile picture in facebook.
I wonder how Jun can stand putting her profile picture there for a year.
Haha you see I have been out of blogger for a little while.
Been pretty busy.

The other day i was at one of my old friend's amazing, breath taking gorgeous crib.
and it's 35th floor was just drop dead amazing.
Overlooking klcc and everything !
You've got bean bags to sit on while feeling the cold wind brushing your hair and DAMN.
WHAT A VIEW IN KL.
I have to camp in there one day.

Moving on.
It did not happened like in the movies where two person met based on love at first sight.
But all i've got to say here that it has been great !
I am not going to mention who's that crazy boy here, or even on Facebook i guess.
There's no such need of telling the whole world about it.
Because everything's fine for now and hopefully in the future.
What we say is that if its yours its yours.

Friends come and go.
Friends changed for the worst or for the better.
This , is life.
:) After watching sorority row that day with Jun.
Hahahahahahahahahaha. Alll the blood and all.
kononnya sisterhood. ended up mati katak. Damn gruesome movie man.

ok la i want to rest awhile and call McDonalds.

I did the baby talk

2011-01-10T15:50:00.002+08:00

Lately i think babies are trying to communicate with me..
But i'm not that sure yet..
maybe it's the either way around.

Yesterday I was eating at the food court and there's this baby on the next table looking at me.
And when i looked up and smiled. He burst into laughter.
And started talking his gibberish language blublubloop.
Pointing towards his food and continues making all these interesting hand motions.
It's rather funny and a tiny bit weird that this unknown baby is trying to make a conversation with me.
Even his parents find it weird.

So of course, I did respond to this adorable thing . I did the baby talk too.
You just can't help it.
The baby talk was way too overpowering.
And when I was about to leave the table i waved at him and he waved back so furiously my heart was about to melt.

Not only this baby.
Later that night,
i was at nichii looking at clothes when another baby started talking to me. pointing at the clothes and blablablabloo.

Funny.

Thought processing.

2011-01-09T22:17:00.002+08:00

hmm.should I on it or off it?

we'll see how it goes from here.

good things take time.

and time will tell. :)

Paint a picture of a thousand words.

2011-01-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

Didn't hold the brush for a long,long time.

By the way, I baked brownies today. :)
However it turned out to be chocolate cake. Mom says it's still alright tho'. Haha.
Ah, feeling dizzy today.

Calling it a day early.

Fallen angel.

2011-01-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Lucifer is my boyfriend and he got exiled from heaven cause he was very naughty infront of God

Great. The boredom has finally overwhelmed me.
Haha.
I want that ring .
So prettty :D

YAYA. everyone is breaking up nowadays. so normal, it's a brand new year.
but the moment i saw this couple,and they were together since i was form 2 broke up.
I was like. mmhmm.
Now,
just as random as it can be, i would like to give a shout out to my "secret admirer"
who would not want to admit his name and has been texting my phone for the past few days.

no name then byebye.

exercise sikit je pening pulak.

2011-01-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

wow. super,super geram with myself.
In terms of fitness level i rate myself like a 1/10.
Definately my own worst critic.
But seriously? Seeing stars in like 20 minutes?
what the shit.
AH,CHANGE TOPIC.

Now,

.Black Swan.

a beautiful masterpiece.

natalie portman was outstanding.

2011

2011-01-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

New Year Resolutions.

Wait, what new year resolutions?

The one I had for 2010 is still there.

I have not completed any of it .

Loser wei.

(1) SPM 10A's.

(2) New Camera

(3) Travel to ShangHai.

Three simple things yet so hard to get.

What resolutions?

But anyway.

Hope my grandparents are healthy .

Family well and happy.

Everyone is contented.

And I wish that college life would be productive.

Yes, I really do hope college life won't suck so bad.

Few Days Ago

2010-12-30T11:32:00.003+08:00

29.12.10 , happy birthday Danial Hisham.
So went to curve and bought a small table, 3 plastic chairs and a bunch of other stuffs.
It was so random. haha
Then did my debit card. Haha VISA finally.
Went back home and fix the chairs and table with mom.
Gave up fixing and left it all for mom to fix.
Started baking cookies, but also left it all for mom to finish baking the 4th and 5th tray cause
Teng was on the way to meet me :D
hahaha.
Went to Lameeya at uptown for dinner then to solaris to meet cherng woei.
Teng so bravee to drive all the way to ttdi :)
Don't know will meet this guy anytime soon anot, hope we can keep in touch.
At least, we have Facebook. haha

Aalright, this is one of the prom photos.

And that's me, sexy lian, and mafia farid(classmate).

That's all for now.

Can't wait for CNY.

Should find a boy who loves fat people.

2010-12-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

today gym was super not productive due to myself.
and now i'm like half-dying.
and before that i got reprimanded by the old neighbour upstairs for accidentally hitting her car when i opened the door. wtf i said sorry, and she gave my mom the look, and scolded my sis too.
damn babi. how many people you want to scold cause i ter knock ur car while opening my car door.
HOW MANY SORRIES MUST I TELL YOU.
i was so sincere when i said " eh sorry auntie about that " . OH TUHAN, for all the days ( practically every school day ) i wish her good morning. And all i get from this old woman was a scolding when i did just touched her car. there's no scratch somemore!
Haih.
WHAT A DAY.

but forget about it lah. i want to forget about my paranoidish.
I don't want to think so much lah.

I don't want to think how fat i am. ok,fine. I'm still thinking.

So I should find a boy who loves fat people.

Rose,where's my gun?

2010-12-21T17:36:00.002+08:00

Ahaha. Weeeeeeee
It was rather fun yesterday.
Maybe cause everyone let loose.
But I miss those people who couldn't make it..like the twins...hafiz ismail..ayesha..joel kuan..kristin..ecetra.

WELL.
STILL IT WAS CRAZY FUN.
yan koh really knows how to shake it on the dance floor.hahaha. and everyone's just all happy.
it's just..nice to be around with your friends. you don't get many chances like that already.

:')
heh.
i'll upload a picture or two here when i get them from the photographers on facebook.

shu uemura

2010-12-19T22:36:00.002+08:00

Shu uemura.
Their x'mas edition colour palette is just so adorable !
Thanks to the sales assistant named,samantha who was very good in her pr, she managed to convince us in buying the product.
She gave me a free make up consultation and taught me how to apply the false eyelashes which i purchased.
I'm not really good in applying make up so yes she's not bad.
Too bad for smashbox because i was on the way to parkson to purchase Smashbox's primer but my eyes set on their range of pretty,little things ...
Shu uemura should give me credits for this, haha.

Below is the packaging of the colour palette. It is also refillable.

It's more of a x'mas glow to it but as the SA says, you can apply it anytime.

I also bought their loose powder and under base mousse,

i love their under base mousse.

to me, it's like a primer.

really,really smooth.

And lastly of course, their best seller eyelashes

luxe black.

they do have those dramatic stuffs. even this, which is considered 'normal' is already a little too much for me. haha. but I'm quite excited in putting them on.

need some drama now and then.

HEH. :)

My mom also purchased their cleansing oil, it doesn't really work for me but my mom loves it.

Anyway, they offer 2 free eyebrow shaping, 2 free make-over and 2 free make up consultation.

It's pretty worth it seeing you are entitled for a life-term membership card and you'll be able to collect points to redeem another product.

But the catch is that points collected can only be redeemed in that year itself.

So let's put aside shu uemura,

I met up with Jun at the Loaf for tea. Chit chat for awhile and they had to leave already.

Bought a shirt in Zara and another in MnG.

THAT GOES MY DAY.

prom tomorrow.

STAY TUNED. :)

Bloops

2010-12-17T12:31:00.001+08:00

It is prom.

Everyone, is stressing out.

Haha.

Hey lola.

2010-12-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

the interview went okay i guess?
fingers crossed.

i am in deep shit.
i have yet do a pedicure.
hahahaha.
maybe saturday after taylors open day.

i am also in deep shit.
wondering about all these things i have to buy for prom deco.
(actually nothing much.)

I went to bangsar yesterday cause it was mommy's birthday.
MY MOMMY.
crazy woman.
:)

wanted to go to some nice place but in the end we went to Chilis.
cause i craved for fish and chips and she actually craved for quesadillas.
at the end of the day i bought this jumpsuit, first one ever.
i got praises even from my sister, so what the heck.
BUY-

oh right,before that.
went out with cherng woei for a movie and to just hang out.
bought something at cotton on.

we're going college soon, we need a new set of clothes.
well I need a new set of clothes.

I need a new set of changes, and hopefully, just hopefully the scholarship will be there.
Definately will lessen my old man's burden.

Hello hello.

2010-12-13T12:06:00.002+08:00

It is the first monday after my spm examination finished last thursday.
It has been an awesome weekend, getting to go back to kemaman to see my grandparents.
I did manage to calm my grandpa down , he's been getting on everyone's nerves lately.
Guess it's because of old age and the need to seek for attention.
I miss them alot. Thankfully i'm going back there next week !
After the smkaa's prom. Haha.

So..i will be having an interview on the phone on wednesday.
It took me by surprise they'd conduct an interview through phone.
But i'm also quite relief that the interview will..(i hope)..make me more at ease.
Fingers crossed i won't talk rubbish on that day..
haih.

Thursday's my ceramah for driving ! can't wait to get it over with. :D

I have tons of book to pack still.
Ah, lazy.

Currently reading this book entitled ' Boy and Man '.
Very witty. Love it.